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Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Maggie Connelly, Part 2

Maggie and Stella slid into a booth, neither bothering to look at a menu. Unsurprisingly, they each ordered their favorites Rhubarb pie and a coke for Stella and Apple Pie and a coffee for Maggie. There was a comfortable silence, the kinds that only comes between mothers and daughters who have grown into friends.

Maggie sat there and began to wonder if there just wasn’t something wrong with her, after all she had gone on all of these interviews and had yet to receive a second interview. It wasn’t that she wasn’t well qualified or interviewed poorly she knew, but she suspected that firms only wanted to hire individuals that could, and would, easily slip into the mold expected of them. Maggie knew that failure to wear the black suit uniform of her profession was a detriment but she wasn’t willing to compromise personal ethics and standards for the sake of a job.

Stella sat there quietly sipping her coke and watch the emotions flicker across her daughters face. She knew that Maggie was worried about not landing a job yet but knew that the right job just hadn’t presented itself yet. Stella was also immensely proud of Maggie for being wise enough to understand that compromising personal convictions to land a job would ultimately lead to more problems that the immediate gratification of having a job and a paycheck could ever compensate for.

The waitress slid their order in front of them and Stella broke the silence, “Hey Maggie, stop fretting. The next interview may be the one and if it’s not, then something else will come along. Sometimes the path lest taken is the best choice in life.”

“I know Mom but sometimes the path trodden by the masses leads to financial stability.”

“Cactus, there are many paths to financial stability some more obvious than others, but there is only one path that leads to true personal satisfaction and respect. Why deviate when ultimately you know the well-trodden path will be a short detour before you cannot look yourself in the mirror in the morning?”

“I know Mom, believe me I know. But it is frustrating that others only see the outside appearance and judge based solely on that and fail to even take the time to figure out that my intelligence, wit, and cunning are not determined by the color of my suit, the height of my heels, or the circumference of my waistline.”

Maggie’s voice was that mix of frustration, anger, and regret that Stella knew well. Maggie was in the process of getting so pissed off, that her self-confidence would be back long before they got back into the car. Stella smiled to herself and just listened to Maggie as she unwittingly gave herself the pep-talk she needed.

“I mean, seriously, does a black suit somehow make you more intelligent? Nope, last time I checked it just made it look like you had no personality and were afraid to dress yourself without parental help.” Maggie smiled slyly, and any passerby would have instantly gotten the utter lack of respect Maggie held for the black suit brigade. “I have a sense of style and I know that the color of my clothing doesn’t diminish my intelligence so screw them and screw their jobs. Some other schmuck can get hired and be burned up by the suits. I am so going to nail that interview with Carson Stone and dammit I will be the first woman that man ever hires.” There was a fierce determination in Maggie’s voice and a spark of determination in her eyes.

“Cactus,” Stella smiled at Maggie “Henry and I are so proud of you and know that you will find the right job when it comes along. Now would you like to go home and put today behind you?”

“Mom, I would like nothing more than to go home and thanks, for feeding me pie and letting me work this out before I brought the toxicity home with me.”

“Hey, what are mother’s for?” Stella smiled as they left the diner and got into the car.

 

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Maggie Connelly: Wednesday

Maggie stood up and extended her hand across the conference table, she shook hands with the interviewing group of lawyers. She strolled from the room with confidence, head held high. The outer office was a somber, quiet place filled with low voices talking in the background, Maggie noticed that like all other legal offices she had interviewed with, this one was monochromatic in color and dismal. Pushing open the front door of the office, Maggie quickly exited the office and felt like a great weight had been lifted from her shoulders. The elevator dinged and Maggie quickly got in and let her body relax in the empty elevator car.

Maggie was a complete contradiction from the group of lawyers she had just interviewed with again, and her previously scheduled interviews with other firms had been a similar experience. Today Maggie was in her favorite forest green suit and rose silk shirt with her amazingly comfortable rose pink kitten heels. No somber black suit with a stark white blouse and sky-high black heels for Maggie. Being a lawyer didn’t mean she was willing to give up her personality and soul for a job.

Elevator came to rest on the ground floor and Maggie alighted and pushed open the lobby door and exited into downtown Phoenix. It was early March and the oppressive summer heat hadn’t yet arrived. Maggie shivered slightly, wishing that there was just a little more warmth in the early spring sun. Maggie’s hand subconsciously reached down and felt for her two good luck charms, the two characters that had been with her on all important interviews, tests, and life events for as long as she could remember. Sure enough, the stuffed tiny mouse and turtle were in her briefcase and the pent-up tension seemed to melt away.

Stella glanced up from her needlework and saw her daughter exiting the building. Stella watched as Maggie’s hand patted the outside of her briefcase and the smile that flitted across her face was one of relief and exhaustion. Stella started the car and pulled up in front of the office building, Maggie slid into the car and Stella drove home.

“Hi Mom, thanks for taking me today.”

“No problem hon, just out of curiosity how are you going to get down here every day if you get the job?”

“Oh don’t worry, I won’t be getting the job. I was a great fit but a horrible fit at the same time. They would be foolish not to hire me but I would be floored if I got a request for a follow-up interview.”

“Why?”

“I don’t fit the mold. I may have the skills and intelligence they need but they want an attorney that fits the mold. You know black suit, white shirt, high heels in black, and somber face.”

Stella merged onto the highway and glanced over at Maggie’s face, it was a mask of rejection, determination, and frustration. “So, when is the next scheduled interview?”

“Oh you mean the last one? The one I got through e-mail and with the attorney that has never hired a woman in his legal career? That interview?” Her voice was dripping with sarcasm and defeat.

“Maggie, that attitude isn’t anything like you and being bitter certainly won’t help.”

Maggie glanced over at Stella, “Sorry Mom, just frustrated and I have to be realistic that I may have to figure out something else to do professionally because I’m not willing to compromise my personality and ethics to fit some pre-determined mode of what a female attorney is supposed to be. I won’t be caught dead wearing the black and white uniform with high heels. What would be the point? I would be miserable and it would reflect back on my clients and that I would result in disaster. I won’t go down that path just for the sake of a job.”

Stella heard the range of emotions in her only daughter’s impassioned speech. “So, take all that frustration and determination and earn the respect of Carson Stone on Friday.”

“Don’t worry I will be over today by the time Charlotte picks me up Friday morning. She’s coming over later. I really appreciate the unwavering support and love from you and Dad. I am lucky and I know it. My professional life will sort itself out eventually, time and patience is all that is required. I just need to stop trying to pour myself into a mold that I know won’t work for me.”

Stella smiled, “I’ve always told Henry that you had an old soul and were wise beyond your years. Don’t be so hard on yourself, the right job will come along. Hey, how about we stop and get a slice of pie before going home?”

“Deal!”